surgery

it is 9:56 pm and way past my bedtime these days. felt the urge to post something to verify my existence. i am hanging on precariously here in week 7 of surgery. no sleep on call destroys me. i am doing trauma now which is a good change of pace. still the hours are too much, i feel stupid often, etc. i also just had a nasty stomach bug feature fever, chills and the works. hard to be sick while being this busy.

i can see the light at the end of one of many long tunnels i am going to pass through in my medical training. specialty of the night has returned to emergency medicine. it will be back to primary care tomorrow, then cardiology and then psych and then back to er.

i have nothing funny to say tonight. tomorrow i turn 30. i have wasted a good portion of my life i think. hopefully i won't waste the next 30 years.

goodnight.