nurses, death and basketball

ok. i guess i'll write in here again. today i went to this african community tutoring thing to play with kids. i ended up getting roped into a 4 on 4 basketball game with a bunch of big black guys who were really good. i am TERRIBLE. i threw up some nice air balls and bad passes and then, as if it couldn't get worse, i split my pants going up for a rebound. how awkward. but the goal was to do something that doesn't involve me dwelling on my own weird life for a few hours on a saturday. it wasn't very fun, truth be told, but i tried hard to boost the self-esteem of this little 5th grader named harrison who is really good at math. maybe i made some small contribution to the goodness of the universe after splitting my pants and getting schooled on the basketball court.

so i was sitting at a computer at a nurse's station yesterday afternoon when this mid 20s nurse walks by and says "hell no i'm not getting pregnant until i marry a doctor!" she noticed that i heard what she said and i chuckled. then all day i tried to avoid eye contact with her when i walked by her station because she was giving me these kind of weird embarassed looks. anyway, this girl was a bit cheesy with some inappropriate red streaks in her hair. i hope i don't have to deal with her every day now.

so i saw a person die for the first time on thursday. it was quite a surreal experience. my resident and i were walking around and there was a code in a room. i guess doctors that are walking by have to come help. so we went in and this woman was laying on her bed with a bunch of people around her limp and blue and lifeless. apparently her heart stopped but she was DNR but not DNI so they had to try to intubate her but couldn't shock her heart or do chest compressions. it was sad because they kept ventilating her like 15 minutes after her heart had been stopped and had no chance of starting again. i guess that is the first of many people i will see die. what an odd, sad, creepy and strange situation. but i didn't puke or pass out which was a good sign. but i did feel kind of hung over and lousy the next day. sad.

what else? my apartment is a shithole right now and i am trying to muster up the energy to give it some order. i also think i should do some reading for medicine out of my textbook. it's a nice day out, but i like resting on the weekends. i did my outdoor time with those kids i think.

ok peace.